that is not an option

on my old blog i believe i said that i will no longer dwell on the past and on things that i have no control of... well i still want to have that mind set! i mean i will never forget any of those things (i can't). i want to keep those things in the back of my mind to push me to do better and strive for bigger and greater things. there's so much that i want! at least one thing is added to my list of wants every hour of the day. although i want so much i do want to live a simple life! but don't mistake simplicity for mediocracy (that is not an option)! theres so much going on in my head at once (maybe i have ADD. not ADHD because i'm never hyper!) that i find it hard to focus sometimes... i spend hours having conversations with myself at an attempt to clear the air, which is successful for the first 5 minutes then the system crashes. i'm working on it.